Well it is official. I am back to work. I made the decision to start back to work at the beginning of the school year because I really felt like it would be easier for me and for my students and I have not regretted my decision for a minute, well maybe for a minute or two. We have a babysitter coming to our house four days of the week and Lila is going to Nanny and Grampy's on Mondays because not only am I back to work but I am back to school as well, attempting to finish up my second Masters degree by next summer. So, these last two weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind but overall it has been great. I have heard so many stories about mothers and babies crying for weeks at a time when the time came for Mommy to return to work and we haven't had that. Don't get me wrong, I miss her like crazy and the first few days were definitely not easy. But, I think Lila and I have a very secure attachment and I feel comfortable leaving her for the day. I don't think I love her any less than I did when I was home all day, if anything I love her even more now that I miss seeing her throughout the day and I cherish every moment we have together, awake and asleep! I love my daughter but I have to admit, I love my job too. I think some moms feel like they aren't supposed to enjoy their jobs once they have babies but I think I can and should be passionate about both. I work with an incredibly special and amazing group of students and staff at my school and though at times I wish I could stay at home and spend all of my days with Lila, that just isn't a possibility at the moment and if I have to be away from her I am so glad that I am working where I am and enjoying spending my days with some really great people. I like to think that when I am at work I am making a difference in the lives of all of my students and I have so much fun doing it that it certainly has made my return to work much easier.
Lila has been adjusting very well to the new arrangement and though she has cried a couple of days it hasn't lasted long and the past two days there were no tears at all. She is still on the move, crawling and pulling herself up, walking along furniture, it is only a matter of time before she starts to walk I think.
We are looking forward to the cooler temperatures and all the other good things that come with fall, sweaters and jeans, apples (especially apple crisp!), pumpkins and corn mazes! Should be a great few months to come!